To the man who stands behind his woman who has migraines



In Celtic tradition there is a word for what you are to me. "Anam Cara" which means soul friend. You are the person in this world that my soul has connected to and feels safe with. I can confide in you and be myself with you.

That is why I want to thank you for always being here for me, no matter what. It's hard to be with someone with migraines. Some people think others exaggerate about migraines, and they think we are just having a normal headache.

But you have seen me at my worst with migraines. You are there when I wake up at 3am with such an intense migraine that I can barely move. You are there to help me take some medicine, you hold me and rub my back while I wait for the medicine to kick in. You come home after a long day at work, but as soon as you see the lights turned off, the curtains closed and the Grinch playing quietly then you know what's wrong. I don't even have to say a word, you get changed crawl into bed and play with my hair as I fight the pain and nausea.

You don't always get to have fun because of my migraines. Sometimes dates get canceled because I can't leave the bed because of the throbbing. Sometimes outings get cut short because being in the heat too long is a trigger. And sometimes you cant enjoy simple things like a snack because the dark chocolate or coconut is also a trigger.

I sometimes feel like my migraines are holding you back and that you deserve better. But then I think about how everyday you tell me how much you love me. I think about the beautiful poems you write me every morning. And I think about those two words that mean so much to me. Anam Cara, cause you are not only my soul friend, you are my soul mate. I can't see spending my life without you in it.
So this is me saying thank you for always being there for me, for always helping me get through the day and for finding me in this world. The world would be a darker place for me without you in it.

Thank You.

Terrors of The Night Cure

When I was younger I had a really hard time sleeping. I had bad nightmares, I would sleep walk and talk and sometimes I would wake up into a panic attack. As I have gotten older my sleeping problems have not decreased. I still have really bad nightmares all the time and I still wake up in a panic. 

I have read many different posts online about how to help with sleeping problems, I have tried so many of the suggestions and ideas. But I still have trouble sleeping. I'm going to list a couple of things I have tried because they may be able to help others with sleeping problems. 

1) The first thing that people recommend is to set a sleeping schedule. Make sure your getting a full 8 hours of sleep. Set a time that you go to sleep every night and set a time to wake up every morning, even on your days off from work or school. This will get you into a schedule so your body will feel more rested. 

2) Make your bedroom a peaceful environment. Dim the lighting, turn your T.V off and try to read a calming book. Some people suggest to not have a T.V in your bedroom at all. And when I say a calming book....I mean something without action, drama and romance because those types of books are very interesting and may keep your mind wandering even after you put your book down. You want a calm book that will just relax you, there are lots of inspirational book, or even a book of poems. 

3) Some sites recommend doing some yoga positions or meditation before bed. To calm your body and mind.

4) Taking a nice long hot bath can also help to calm your mind and body. 

5) There is also the practice of visualization. Before you go to sleep close your eyes and think of some happy thoughts. Think of things that you would like to dream about. Thinking about these things right before you go to bed can actually help you to dream of nice things.

6) There is always the option of medication...But I think that should be a last resort!!

Now my sleeping problems still exist and I have not found anything to stop them but I have tried some new things that have helped a little. These last two suggestions are two things I have tried recently and I have only had one bad night in about a week since I incorporated these into my sleeping schedule.

-The first is to have some happy signs around you, paint a picture of something that makes you smile, or draw something, or even just write a quote/song/words that make you happy. Hang those up on your wall all around your bed. I love the show "The Big Bang Theory" and I love Sheldon Coopers "Soft Kitty" song so I drew a picture of that and put that next to my bed. I smile every time I look at it. 

-The second new thing I have been doing may sound a little weird. I went online and researched different cultures to see spiritual objects or creatures meant to protect you from bad dreams. I found a story about a creature named "Baku." He is a creature from Chinese/Japanese culture and he is called the dream eater. So I wrote "Baku please protect me from nightmares" on some paper and hung it above my bed. 

Now I am not saying these last two suggestions have cured my nightmares but for the past week they have helped, so I am going to keep them up and see how long it helps. 

Now I do realize that some of the these may be all mind over matter, it's kinda like tricking your brain into thinking these things are helping. But I really don't care how it helps as long as it helps me get a good nights sleep. So Those are my suggestions and the things I have found online said to help. If you have trouble sleeping then give one of these a try or try all of them. Let me know if any of them help you. 

Oh and if you like this post subscribe to my blog. I will be posting some more things about how to help in situations. Right now I am actually working on a list of things to help get through a breakup.

Preview:

I started a new job recently so I have been really busy the last two weeks. But I have a topic I will be working on over the next few days and then post on here. 

I have always had trouble sleeping. When I was younger I had night terrors, nightmares, I would sleep walk, and sleep talk. 

As I got older I walked and talked less in my sleep but it still happens on occasion. But my biggest problem still is nightmares. I have several each week, sometimes several a night. I have woken up screaming, crying, fighting, and just terrified sometimes. 

I have had the normal nightmares where someone is chasing me or I'm falling but a lot of nightmares are about things that have happened in my life. I'm going to write a post about some of my nightmares and I'm also going to write about some things I have read that can help with nightmares. I'm hoping I can stop some of my nightmares. Because I know what not sleeping well can do to a person. 

So if you have problems sleeping. If you have any nightmares or problems that I listed about then check back for my next post about nightmares. I'm hoping I can help myself and maybe some others, And if I cant help then at least know that your not alone!

Thank you for reading.

An Eye Opener

My life isn't really going as I planned. I have had a lot of set backs and I'm not sure what to do to get back on track. I have always had big dreams. I use to dream about acting and singing. But those are two of the hardest professions to get into. Im not the best singer and I know that, but I love singing. I love music it's my passion. No matter how my day is going all I have to do is put my ear phones in and escape the world. Some songs take me to past memories and some make me think of my dreams for the future. 

I saw this video on TV the other day so I looked it up on youtube and I have fallen in love with the song. Because it makes me want to keep pushing for my dreams no matter how far away they seem. The song makes me never want to give up. I hope everybody has a dream that they want to push towards. What is your dream? Have you given up or are you willing to try to reach it no matter what.

Update

I know one of my New Years Resolutions was to blog more and I have been really lacking with that one. I have been writing down a lot of things I want to blog about but I just haven't had time to actually get on my computer to type them up. My laptop charger stopped working so now I have to borrow my moms when I can.

A lot has happened so far in 2013. I'm hoping I can get online more to actually blog soon cause I have so much I want to talk about. I have been going through a lot lately in my personal life.

I have been trying to write more songs again, I may post some of them on here. Im working on one right now called "Brokenhearted" I just cant get the music right for it though. Maybe when I completely finish it I will make a video for it and include it in a post. But I'm not sure yet. 

I also start my new job this upcoming week so that will be good and crazy. Because I will be working part time on call which means I could be called in for work anytime. I know this isn't that interesting but I just wanted to give a very small update on what's going on and why I haven't been posting. I will try to post something more interesting in the next few days. 

If your reading this then thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I promise it will get more interesting. :)

New Year Resolutions

New Year Resolution:

New Year Resolutions are sometimes hard to keep, I have only kept a couple in my life. Tonight is New Years Eve and I'm make my list. This year I'm trying to focus on making myself better, building onto hobbies and keeping up with things I have started. 

Number 1:

My first resolution is to start feeling better about myself. My goal is not to lose weight but to feel better about how I already look. I want to build up my self confidence. 

Number 2:

My second resolution may sound weird or stupid to some people but I am girl in Ga raised by a former marine. I want to expand my weapons knowledge and skills. I want to become a better shooter with guns and be able to learn more about different types of guns. I also want to take up archery, I want to learn how to aim and shoot an arrow, because you never know what is going to happen. I also want to learn new weapons, maybe learn to protect myself with whatever I may have on hand. 

Number 3:

My third resolution is simple I want to make more time to read books, in 2012 I probably read only less then 15 books. So I want to more then triple that in 2013. 

Number 4:

My fourth resolution is to blog more. I said that last year and about 2 months in I started to slack and then pretty much stopped all together. I have so many ideas and thoughts that I want to put out for people to read so I'm going to blog at least a couple times a week. 

Number 5:

My last resolution is to be more adventurous in 2013. I love hiking and nature walks but I want to go skydiving and mountain climbing. I want to have the courage to do more things and just have fun while I'm young. I also want to travel, there are so many places in the world I want to see.

So those are my 5 New Year Resolutions. Some people may think they are small or crazy but these are some of the things I want to focus on for 2013. I'm hoping next New Years Eve I will be able to write a post saying that I accomplished all the these things. I hope everybody makes a list of resolutions of things they truly want to accomplish and I hope everyone has a great New Years Eve. If you like my posts be sure to comment and subscribe so you can see all my new ones that I will be posting soon. Thank you! 

Cold Sore gone fast

Cold Sore Remedy:

Two weeks ago I woke up with a small bump on my lower lip, it was in a horrible spot cause it was right there in the middle for the whole world to see. After just about 2 or 3 hours after waking up the bump doubled almost tripled in size. I figured I had to do something fast to get rid of it. There are lots of myths and theories out there about how to get rid of cold sores fast. I read a couple of articles online and pieced a couple things together to make my own remedy. And it actually worked!! :)

Now I have only done this once but after about a day and a half of this treatment the cold sore was gone. My lip was still healing but the actual cold sore was gone. 

The first thing I did was started taking two vitamins. L-Lysine 1000 mg by Spring Valley which you can pick up at Walmart. I took one of these a day, but the 1000 mg are pretty huge so please break it in half before you attempt to swallow it. 

The second Vitamin I took was B-Complex by Nature Made which I also get at Walmart. I would suggest taking both of these Vitamins with something other then water because they do have a bad taste. 

I took one of each of those Vitamins a day. And I applied a cold sore cream called Novitra to the cold sore area a couple times a day. I bought my Novitra at Riteaid. This helped with the actual cold sore virus and the symptoms that come with cold sores, such as itching and burning. 

Now here comes the part that is different then most remedies. Every time I put something on my lip I would alternate between the Novitra and my chap stick which is the Mentha Lip Balm stick in Cinnamint which I got from Bath and Body works. DO NOT put this on your lip straight from the tube. That is just getting bacteria on it every time. Wash your hands, use a clean finger to get a little of the chap stick and put it on the cold sore area. Then wash your hands again. 

I don't know how this combination fights it so well but the cold sore was gone very quickly. My lip was a little dry and flaky where the cold sore use to be but some regular chap stick fixed that in about a day or two. But the cold sore was gone.

So if you suffer from cold sores and want to try something to get rid of it fast, try my idea. It helped me so hopefully it will help you. And If you do try it please tell me how it went and what you think of it.

 Thank you for reading Have a great day!